So I'm kind of bummed out right now. I'm just considering how I was in January and how I am now. No doubt I am similar, we are actually almost the same person. But in January I was so amped up to begin my university career. See I thought that I was going to be a psychologist and so OF COURSE I set my eyes on a BA in Psychology. I knew that was the aim so I hastily set up a plan of how I was going to accomplish this. This semester was the beginning of the plan. I enrolled in Psychology Research Methods, Philosophy and Computer Science (basically all required courses for the degree I wanted) I also planned in advance that I'd take two Biology courses this summer (because you need two credits of a science) What a foolproof plan! In January I was totally amped. I had my horse blinders on and was ready to embark on this journey. All the while I knew that there were going to be times when I hated what I was doing and would want to drop out or do something drastic. I felt like accepting this fate I was agreeing to do something that I was going to hate all the while until graduation day.
             And yes I knew that this wasn't the only way to get what I wanted. I knew there were other ways but as far as I was concerned I didn't really know any of the other routes so this could work.
             Well...this dream broke apart gradually...
             I started this semester with a horrible start (I won't get into it here) and ended up by the second week dropping out of Philosophy. Knowing full well I could take it in summer with Biology and that wouldn't be too bad. Only recently did my request to drop Computer Science get accepted and I was out of that too. It was an interesting course but for the past few months I was slowly accepting the fact that this was not going to work out.
             This is actually the second time taking Research Methods. I dropped it a while back in order to transfer from a college to a university. The second time around it was alright. I knew a lot of the stuff already so I almost breezed pass the first couple months. But time passed and it turned out that this course was not for me at all. I must stress this though: I had a great teacher. I loved how he taught and he was understanding but I was a less than perfect student and was going through so much this semester I almost regret that we didn't meet in more perfect circumstances because I would recommend him otherwise.
            But now...well I have one more exam tomorrow and a research paper to complete by Wednesday. I have an image of myself running through the meadows in a long flowing dress once this course finishes. And I intend to do just that. This semester has honesty been hellish. It's almost difficult for me to accept that I have accepted that my previous plans have fallen through. But I have and now...well now I'm here.
             I just want to pass this course and then focus on my future prospects. I have an image of what I want to do but how to get there is a bit fuzzy. I'm not excessively worried about that, things will happen as they will, I'm just kind of bummed out that I let my past self down.

Love & Lyrics,
CXC 

           I'm going off to Victoria soon and I thought I'd hit up all my favourite places in Vancouver one last time. Now before I go into detail, I implore everyone to experience the best of everyone's home town. Everyone’s days are consumed with school and work and small petty things that don’t really matter; take some time out to enjoy your city.

So without adieu here are my choice places (in no particular order) (reading this blog you might discover a few new delicious vegetarian spots.)

BBT Cafe – Full of lots of yummy dishes I adore the Wheat Gluten Meal here, as well as the Milk Tea Bubble Tea.  The dish includes rice with black sesame, wheat gluten and various fungi as well as an egg portion. In my experience they serve the egg either hard-boiled and soaked in tea (which is my preference) or scrambled egg with tomato sauce. For my last meal here I’ll have to request the hard-boiled option.

Pho Tan- Now replaces a bubble tea cafe that I once adored while in high school. I’ll always miss Oasis, but for now Pho Tan supplies me with as much ice cream bubble tea that I’d ever want. It is only secondary to Oasis and there is no longer a large fish in front or turtles, but I’ll miss it just as much. Not sure how much more Green Tea Ice Cream Bubble Tea with Pearls I’m going to have anymore. I’ll hit this place up once more.

Sejuiced- I love this wonderful vegan bar and I have since forgotten how I first ended up dining here. It has the most delicious tempeh wraps that I’ve ever come across. It was one of the first times that I felt fantastic for being a vegetarian. It was also one of the foods I wanted to eat every single day. Sejuiced also has yummy fruit shakes/juices and yummy vegan chocolates.  Need to see you one last time, dear Sejuiced.

Jugo Juice- I drink my Mini Mango with hopes it isn’t the last one I’ll enjoy. And fortunately after research I have found it won’t be (save visits home and all that) Jugo Juice has spread to Victoria and so I will have it often. Jugo Juice has always been there for after rock climbing or yoga when I need a juice kick. It will remain there as one of my preferred juicing locations.

Arbutus Club- Good luck with this one but I do plan on going to the Arbutus gym and getting a strawberry smoothie one last time. Neither one is particularly necessary but just a nice thing to enjoy. This Thursday I’ll look into gyms in Vic and otherwise savour the sip of the strawberry smoothie (which consists of whipping milk and frozen strawberries, you aren’t missing much)

711- I only want your slurpees and I imagine that 711 is as widespread as McDonalds (which is another joint I’m ODing on because there aren’t any nearby) and again, if you haven’t ever consumed a slurpee, what have you been doing?

Banana Leaf- I said my farewell to this delicious Malaysian cuisine on Sunday although you never know. The Mee Goreng and Roti Conae is nothing to contend with. I could not get enough of it if you tried. Although they have a fine assortment of dishes if those aren’t your thing. They will always be in my heart.

Foundation- My brother and I ate at the Foundation the other day although I’m sure it’s not my last time. This offbeat vegan restaurant off Kingsway is worth a visit. Although their service is not great, their food is worth at least one visit. My favourite is the Mingling Yams and the Molten Tofu and somehow I can never say no to ordering the Foundation Burger as well which comes with a yummy salad. At one time the Tofu and Yams came on a sample plate but now they’ve evolved into their own separate dish. I also here the chilli is delicious here to. Go for a visit, I know I have one more visit left in me until I’m gone.

Cliffhanger/The Edge- I remember when I was turning sixteen and I went to Cliffhanger for my birthday party. They had pleasant helpful staff and lots of routes on the walls that made for a very fun time. I also remember The Edge in North Van which had an overwhelming amount of choice for routes to rock climb on. Bouldering is also offered at both of these locations. I’m not sure if I’m going to head out for another excursion but if you’re interested in a new hobby, check out rock climbing.

Adrenaline- I can’t convey to you what this place means to me, or explain to you why it could ever be important to anybody but me. But if you are up for a piercing, tattoo or purchasing street wear, this is the place to go. The staff is awesome, friendly and are helpful. Let me not going in to detail about what I’ve had done (hah I feel like I’m talking about plastic surgery) but suffice to say you are in safe hands when you are with them. I’ll miss you Addy. They also have locations in Toronto and New Jersey if you are interested.

Davie St- If you have yet to go, it is a street to be. I want to accomplish a few items off my bucket list before moving which I can accomplish on this street.  Come to Davie if you want a fun and interesting time. Amongst other clubs out there on the scene.

Cottage Bistro- Another place I might not get to see before I leave but Cottage Bistro means I lot to me. I performed many open mics and even my first show here. I read poetry and enjoyed some good food with strangers who have become friends. I’ll leave with the memory. I encourage everyone to create their own memories here. Grab some food, or the spotlight, you won’t regret it!

Hope you enjoy these places, or find your own way of seeing your city.

           Fandom is hysterical! Especially the fans that actually take on the names of a particular band member even though they aren't related to them at all. It's a nice thought. I wouldn't mind changing my last name if my fantasy became reality; if Andy found me and loved me, we could live happily ever after!
           But in all honesty, the name is Carter, no Biersack, and the likelihood of anything happening remotely in that vein of thinking is as likely as a black president (wait...scratch that! )
           If I've learned anything in the past month though, it's that the past is as much who we are as the present (and the future). I've recently rediscovered the years I've spent idolizing the bands that I loved. That rush of feelings is indescribable and addicting. I absolutely love it and will hands down admit to being a fan girl. Listening to the tunes, watching them perform, swooning over any new picture that comes out, not to mention voting them up on countdowns and jumping with glee when they make it to the top! I miss that. And now I've found a new band to relive that all with: Black Veil Brides.
           Well the "official" story is that I knew I loved them 40 seconds into 'Knives and Pens'. That smile did it. But the more drawn out story is, well I absolutely adored the message they were spreading, and I so wished I had a band like them when I was in high school. I can only live with what I have now, though. And that's giving them the utter adoration they deserve. Which, by the way, I don't know what I was thinking, I'm not a #purdygirl, I'm #Andysgirl (although that isn't really a thing)
           But just to be clear, Biersack isn't the surname...yet